Sunday, September 19, 2010

I Don't Know What I'm Doing...

I don't understand the feelings. I understand the terms. I just feel really comfortable and I'm able to be myself when I'm around you. Lately, things have been pretty fucked up and I am very grateful that you've appear once again in my life. I treasure it alot. I don't want to ruin or change the friendship we have also. But somehow, I feel like I'm slowly sabotaging it. I don't know why or what I'm doing but I just know that I really like going out with you. Whether its lunch, dinner, movie, club or even the arcade. I just enjoy myself 200%. You chase away my emo-ness and bring the joyful me back. Maybe its unfair or unreasonable for me to think like this but sometimes you say you're lazy to go out or sometimes you can't wake up at all but by the end of the late evening, you'll be out drinking. Sometimes I'll overthink and start to wander, why you can't go out with me? But then again, who am I to compare to the others friendship that you've built with. Sigh...what am I doing?! Its not I am desperate to watch movies but I enjoy movies with you because we're linked in the same channel. We both are noisy in the cinema, haha. And I rarely watch movie with people so I like it. This friendship I have with you, it grew closer within this 2weeks and I want it to stay this way because the other way, it seems impossible. To have you around is better than not at all. I miss the night we went to watch Resident Evil :) It was fun...

You taught me alot of things, change my point of view, gave me alot of advice. Now I need advice on how I should maintain it with you...

0 comments:

Post a Comment