Wednesday, October 6, 2010

LATELY...

Walking around Gurney and chatting with my friends today sorta brought back some old memories of my past relationship with a certain someone. I noticed that there are 2 things that has stayed with me from THAT relationship. The way I persuade people by saying ''Wolololo~'' and when I'm happy or when its regarding something I like, I'd say ''Wee wang wang, wee wang wang wee~''. Even Hansel noticed it. I never realized it up till now. These two lines has been part of me. Was having dinner with couple of close friends and one of them sorta ''merajuk'' and on that instance, I said ''Wolololo~'' There goes the flashback...

From that time on, I started to feel down again. I don't think I'll get back this relationship but at the same time I miss it. I HAVE moved on but there's still part of me thats...
I kept telling myself it was good that I got out of it but a BiG part of me is saying ''What if I had waited?'' because you are now in a different relationship. No longer THE one that affected what happened between us. Alot of flashback memories. The nicknames we called each other, blogging bout our feelings to each other. Calling each other at 2-3AM in the morning. Waking you up for your classes, waiting until you finish your training for your competition at 7PM then only contact you. Sending each other sweet messages, me apologizing to you for making you sad by creating collage of our photos, you saying sorry repeatedly for making me jealous/sad/angry. Crying over silly stuffs such as missing each other because of our distance. When we were at the same location, me going to find you for lunch and dinner EVERYDAY. Gossiping about other people. Toilet breaks together, LOL! Your laughter, calling each other cibaii and lan jiao, LOL! All the little things we do. Listening to our song, Officially Missing You by JS and that time I was heavily addicted to Cheryl Cole's Fight For This Love :) because I was fighting for our love.

Now that we are friends, its even harder to communicate. You only find me when you need help. Previously, you asked me to help you book movie ticket in MidValley when I'm all the way here in Penang. Best part? I did help you book. Then you needed help with your assignment, I helped. Recently, you texted me asking me to give you ideas on your individual assignment. I wanted to help you so badly but I am VERY disappointed that each time you come and find me, its for your own sake...I restrained myself from replying you. It was VERY hard and I felt really bad doing it but still, I was very disappointed with how you treat me...and I still am. But the fact is, you left a SCAR in my life, in my faith but you left me with SWEET memories too

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