Saturday, December 25, 2010


Everyone has relatives whether you like it or not. Sometimes you love them but most of the time, you really hate them because all they do is butt in.

My relatives are...well, uneducated and really really conservative. I am 21 years old for God's sake and you guys still have that mindset that I am the 15 year old teen who dropout from high school. I thought I needed to grow up but you guys REALLY need to GROW UP! What is wrong with you people? Don't you have a life? Why want to keep ruining my life. Very fun is it?

Let me clear this, I shop. Yes, who doesn't? Just because I am not AS RiCH as you all are, then I am not allowed to shop is it? I buy 1 piece of shirt and you all acted like hell break loose and come say I don't take care of my mom. Mother is mine, I know how to take care. Is it a sin for me to occasionally spend on myself? If its a sin then you all already booked a place in hell. CONFiRM! You all may be RiCH in CASH but I am RiCH in PERSONALiTY! You all are empty in that department. You all are like empty souls playing Celebrity Game and I'm the Celebrity that you all take pleasure on gossiping. I get a haircut and you all go frantic because its a RM20 haircut. So, being average or poor does not permit me to be stylish? EXCUSE me because I am WAY more stylish than any of you combined. I am ashamed to have you all as my relatives because I get no moral support from you all. Just lots of slandering, backstabbing and gossiping. Maybe you all forgot that I'm all grown up and I've grown to be a bitchy person. Do not make me confront any of you. I would leave you speechless. If you are brave enough, come say it right into my face. Not behind my back passing the words around.

Got problem with me clubbing? DON'T TELL ME you all never been to clubs??? Ya, right! I club, so what? I do EVERY 3-4months! I am your cousin, nephew but not your child. Do not control me. I go with friends, we share the bill. Its like a normal lunch bill. What's your problem?

Oh ya, little cousins of mine. You also playing role as reporter? Sorry, not enough knowledge and education level yet. Continue your studies in High School first. Then if you can make it to college level only come judge me and report to your parents about what I'm doing. English so damn pathetic and yet wanna talk to me? Go get a life. Go study and go for tuition. Thats what you all do anyways, on a daily basis. I NEVER needed tuition and my English is WAY WAY better compare to any of you combined!

12-15yrs old already so nosy. What? Too much influence from TVB drama is it? Effect of media!

You think I'm a failure? That I am Project Failure? Well, letme tell you this. I am Project Runway. I will run what I am doing in the future. I am what the industry needs! I am doing well in what I am pursuing. Given any of my subjects, NONE of you would understand. Its Christmas and you all need to destroy my Christmas, huh? Its also my Birthday week and you all damn good lar!

Oh ya, my Facebook is mine. Read MiNE! If you can't understand, please go refer to a dictionary. Oxford Dictionary may be too deep for you all. Try Kamus Dewan. Unless you all wanna support me in what I do which is my STUDiES, otherwise please stay out of my life.

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Thursday, December 23, 2010


On this day, 21 years ago...GOD created a child named Joseph Pek. Little he know that this child turned out...GAY. Anyways! Its my BiRTHDAY! Not much presents but all the wishes and smses from friends are BETTER than presents. Touched and smiling and laughing all the way reading those Facebook posts and messages.

Its my birthday today. YOU planned out my birthday celebration months and months ago but...we did not last. I am sad by this fact. What's worse, you didn't even bother to wish me. You may not be part of my life anymore but...nevermind, its ok. I shouldn't let you spoil my mood anymore than you already have. Enjoy your new life.

Joseph Pek! Your BiRTHDAY! Don't EMO!

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010

You Believe This CRAP?

All I hear is raindrop falling on the rooftop. Oh baby, tell me why you'd have to go cuz this pain it won't go away and today~ I'm officially missing you. I thought that from this heartache I could escape. Say every little thing you do, it stays on my mind and I'm officially missing you. Maybe you could be mine again. Maybe we could make that dream to real like way back then. When love was yours & mine. Maybe we can bring it back to live...(iMPOSSiBLE)

I didn't feel. The fairytale feeling, no. Snow white said when I was young, "One day my prince will come." So I wait for that date. They say its hard to meet your match, find my better half. So we make perfect shapes. If stars don't align, if it doesn't stop time, if you cant see the sign, wait for it. One hundred percent, with every penny spent. He'll be the one that, finishes your sentences. (BULLSHiT)'s not like the movies. Cinematic and dramatic with the perfect ending. It's not like the movies but that's how it should be, yeah. When he's the one, you'll come undone and your world will stop spinning,
And it's just the beginning...(Yeah, right)

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Sunday, December 19, 2010


Well, here I am in KL. The big city version of Malaysia. I was happy to come KL previously. The excitement and happiness is now gone. When I come back here, I feel a lot of bitter memory. There were some sweet memory but...the sweet has turned sour. "I was thinking bout him, thinking bout me, thinking bout us, what we could've been but it was all just a dream..."

The place I am staying for training, no public transportation. I thought its near to my working place, its not. All also went wrong. Before come KL, one by one say wanna meet and hang out. Reached KL, nobody. Now...all alone and bored. If I am able to, I wish I'm back in Penang.

My birthday month and I am feeling so lonely. Feeling like I'm the only one left. There are people around me but I seem invisible to them. I wonder if anyone remembers my birthday. Come KL also feel lonely...

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Back From The Past


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Wednesday, December 8, 2010


Well, its December again. I can't say I like it much though. For everyone, their BiRTHDAY MONTH means a lot to them. For me, I just don't like it. Why? Because iT'S DECEMBER for God's sake! Everyone is on vacation, everyone isn't around, everyone is busy, everyone is leaving here and there. There's no one to celebrate my birthday nor for me to celebrate with! I have NEVER celebrated my birthday with a group of friends like what I normally see in college, in TV, in outings. I never got that because everyone would be away. Growing up, its always been me and my parents. Last year, it was me, 3 ex-high school friends and my ex. But last year's birthday celebration was also the very main reason why we broke up. So, yeah...I was supposed to enjoy it and for a brief moment I did until he destroyed it, no thank you to Kenneth Foo. My birthday but there was restriction to no photos, no videos, blah blah blah...oh ya, no pressie from HiM too! Nothing to remember it by...

I've always celebrated friend's birthday and get them presents for their big day. And I wish someone would do the same for my birthday but the usual would be, I wait and wait and December 23rd pass JUST LiKE THAT...Remember how people alway says that YOU DO NOT WISH OR ASK BACK FOR PRESENT when YOU GiVE. Haha, letme tell you is a WHOLE BUNCH of CRAP. Everyone expect to get something back when they give. I thought this year I would be spending my B'day and X'mas with YOU but I guess we didn't last that long. We planned it out but here we are...back to nothing. I really thought this YEAR I would get to go through my special day with YOU but you've found someone else and I am still left here hanging...R.I.P : APRiL - JUNE 2010

X'mas...what is fun about X'mas when you are too broke to even feel the spirit of X'mas. Too broke mentally and financially. There is no X'mas fun in it. All I WANT this X'mas is YOU (if you are out there)

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Its been a VERY LONG time since I last update my blog. Its not that there's nothing to blog, just that I haven't been in the mood to blog. Want to blog bout something but there isn't the will the blog.

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