As much as I deny it, no matter what...I try not to look like it but...I am SO CUTE! I tried to look scary but look what I end up looking like? C-U-T-E!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
As much as I deny it, no matter what...I try not to look like it but...I am SO CUTE! I tried to look scary but look what I end up looking like? C-U-T-E!
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Halloween's Eve came! We all went to celebrate it in Boom Boom Chambre at Upper Penang Road. There was a costume party. We reached the Han Chiang Hostel at 5.30pm to start on our costumes and later at 8pm, we start on our make-ups. My outfit was pinned here and there with safety pin, LOL! I loved the outfit SO much!
Benny went as Medusa with scale painting on his face and blue hair. Kit Zai was a Hybrid of a zombie and a mummy. Soo Lyn was Ms. Kitty Kat. Kher Shieu was the Ghost of Cheongsam, she was clad in cheongsam with all white eyes. Her sister, Kher Shein dressed as the Mad Scientist. We all agreed that she looked like...Dr. Farell from Dragonica. Joshua was Prince Charming with a twist while I was Glampire, the hybrid form of Adam Lambert and a Vampire, haha. Joshua was the exact opposite of me. He was all white and only a Trinity pendant for accessory while I was all black with pins, chains and necklaces. Joshua was SiMPLiCiTY and I was EXAGGERATiON. Prior to entering the club, we got our make-ups touched up by make-up artists provided by BBC. The night was ghoulish and fun. ''Welcome to Hell - Freda Dragonstarr'' We all enjoyed the performances. Let the pictures do the talking :)
Posted by Joseph at 6:00 PM
Sitting in Paddington House Of Pancakes and watching people walk pass by, I noticed something. Well, a few things actually. First, whenever I bump into friends, the first thing they ask is...''Wow, your hair. Long already, like got bombed.'' LOL! Where got such thing? My hair is...my hair. Its Adam Lambert inspired. Plus, I only look good in this hair, too bad. The next thing is, people kept staring at me. Its either I look like a freak or I look like a PopStar. Notice why I didn't use RockStar? Because I am nowhere near Rock. Third thing, it is Halloween today and not much people got dressed up. Last night, yes. Today, not much people dressed up. Best part? Some come out of their house looking like themselves but honestly, they look like...Halloween itself, haha. Under-dress is not for today, hehe. Well, I am not really over or under-dressed. I am just clad in a white jacket, hehe. An undershirt from Renoma mix with a white jacket.
Posted by Joseph at 5:47 PM
Thursday, October 28, 2010
If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river at dawn. Send me away with the words of a love song. Lord, make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother. She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors. Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no♥
Posted by Joseph at 11:34 PM
October 30th! Halloween's Eve, what will I be dressing as? Well, ever heard of a creature called Glampire? It is a hybrid form of vampires called Glampire which is short for glam type vampires. That is who I will be on that day.
Halloween, otherwise known as Samhain in Celtic tradition, a day where the veils between the two worlds are thinner than usual. A day where souls are allowed to come back and visit their loved ones. For cheeky ghouls and imps, it is a day for them to play pranks on human beings.
"Tonight as the barrier between two realms grow thin, spirits shall walk amongst us once again. They will be families, friends, foes, pets and strangers. This feast, I will leave on my doorstep all night. On my window, one candle shall burn bright to help my loved ones find their way as they travel this eve and this night until dawn. In life is death and in death is life, tonight we are joined again..."
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Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Change...it is not necessarily good nor bad. Sometimes its good, sometimes it is not. Who I am in the past is really messed up. Who I am as I progress through college? I am starting to like him but the thing is, we as human tend to change according to the society's wants. I've experienced it myself. I have changed SO MUCH just because of the wants of society. This morning, exactly 2.30am, I sat in my friend's car and realized...I don't know who I am anymore. I keep trying to be the person that people expect me to be, the person that is perfect in people's eyes. The person whom my friends like. I avoid being or doing what they dislike at all cost.
So now the question is, WHO AM I? Yes, I am Joseph Pek but what is my personality now? I used to be quiet with no confidence at all. But I gained my confidence and I became more sociable. Still, I search and search but I don't know who I am or what I am. Which category do I belong, I don't know.
But one thing is for sure, I am meant for greatness. I am destined for something big. I'll make it big someday, somewhere. I am somebody!
Posted by Joseph at 2:54 AM
Monday, October 25, 2010
God, if you are up there and if you still care about me, I NEED YOU NOW. Dear God, I am feeling very unhappy. I can't explain why but I just want to tear up. I went to college this morning and I felt very tired about everything. I can't pinpoint what it is. I keep feeling so down, so de-motivated and I just want to cry it out. I feel like I don't belong. I feel I can't stay there any longer. Why am I misunderstood most of the time? Why I can't just be a normal student? I know I stand out everywhere I go but I don't want unnecessary attention. I do not need it. I feel like everything has changed. College feels like a place for gossips and dramas. And I am in the center of it.
I've always been told that I am meant for big things, that I have a place in this world and I'll make it big. I am struggling through life everyday and it is just VERY tiring to be misunderstood. Can I go on for 1 more year? I am someone who is an emotional freak. I show my emotions. People can tell when I am down. Sometimes it is not good so I am keeping it to myself but it is slowly eating me up. I am destroying myself. ''You like to keep things to yourself and go around emo-ing. If you continue keeping it to yourself, you will be in your own world and it will eat you up'' - a best-friend of mine said that.
Posted by Joseph at 10:21 PM
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Alot of things have come and gone. People, things, problems, solutions, happiness, emo-ness. Alot of people have come into my life, few have stayed. Alot of them make a big impression but ended up a mess. Some started with the worst impression but ended up being someone I talk to about everything.
Posted by Joseph at 12:16 AM
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Sometimes, some things that have been said is hard to take back. Sometimes, you can't be right all the time. Sometimes, you have to know to trust a person. Sometimes, you have to let a person have their defense. Sometimes, friends can be a better company than anyone else. Sometimes, when you said things that are hurtful...it stays. Sometimes, a simple word that is hurtful will bring a person down till there's no end. Sometimes, people might think a person is all chirpy and happy and pleases everyone but do you know that it is an upkeep? If a person is to take care of others' feelings, why isn't anyone taking care of his feelings? Shouldn't it be a both way communication?
If dramas and gossips are tiring, what about friends not trusting you enough? What about friends assuming things on their own about you? Sometimes, I ask myself this, ''Did I make the right decision?'' No matter I mix with, it is always your own clique that accepts you for who you are and they trust you with everything.
''Forgive, sounds good. Forget, I'm not sure I could'' - Dixie Chicks
Posted by Joseph at 11:26 PM
You wanna talk production? I care about both of your production. But what did I get in return? A bombing from both parties. That I leaked your videos/movies? Ya, sure. I'd do that after supporting both of you. I went to watch You Again which is supposed to be a comedy but I did not laugh nor smile at all. Thanks alot. As if the day wasn't bad enough. If our friendship is so fragile that you think I would do such things, I am sorry for I am not that kind of person. Sorry to disappoint you. It was a back to back bombing and I seriously do not need that. Maybe the relationship part is going over your head, I don't know. All I know is, the relationship is affecting friendship. If I am the person who introduced you both and you once said ''Thank you for introducing him to me'', guess what? I got screwed for no apparent reason. When you utter the words, ''I will talk to Joseph'' means you already set your mind that I am the one behind it. That I am the culprit. Some words can't be taken back. Apologies won't clear it up. Forgiving is easy, forgetting something like this has happened? Not easy...
Posted by Joseph at 2:20 AM
People say that ''There's somebody for everybody out there.'' Do you believe in this line? Well, I used to. Not anymore. There's is no time period that tells you when ''that'' person will show up so you just keep on waiting and waiting and waiting. When you get tired of waiting, that's when you start to become a skeptic. If there's supposedly someone for everyone out there, why are there some who are still single? From 5relationships that are all screwed up, they are of cheating, lying, cheating and lying. So how do you expect me to believe in that line? Am I still waiting? Truth is...I'm slowly realizing that I have lost faith in love. Shocking but true. No one can say that I'm still young or too young for love because I am 21 and if I am too young, what about 17yrs old up till 19yrs old kids who are in relationship?
Posted by Joseph at 2:11 AM
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Lambert has insisted he will tone down his act in accordance with the country's strict decency laws and the government has granted him a permit to perform. But campaigners are refusing to back down and are planning to demonstrate outside the stadium where Lambert is due to play.
PAS Youth Chief Nasrudin Hassan says, "Lambert is morally unfit. His gay lifestyle will harm our society. He is of bad, bad character and poses a danger to young Malaysians. We want the government to cancel the permit..." But Hassan is adamant all the planned protests will be peaceful.
He adds, "We will use a soft approach to protest against his performance. He has admitted he is gay. We feel his lifestyle will influence and destroy the young generation. We will not use violence to stop the concert."
This piece of news is regarding Adam Lambert's GLAMNation Concert which took place in Bukit Jalil Stadium last Thursday, October the 14th. Oh gosh, seriously? First was Mariah Carey's concert (and its not the first protest) then other artistes that followed. Then Beyonce's. Which got Beyonce so pissed with our country's rules and the protests and such, she pull out of Malaysia and instead went to Indonesia. Now, its Adam Lambert but THANK GOD he managed to perform. Now, let me state a piece of my mind.
The MUSLiMS fear that Lambert might promote the gay culture in Malaysia. Lambert agreed to our terms and said he will tone down his act and theatrical manners and such. What more do you MUSLiMS want??? PAS Youth Chief Nasrudin Hassan said that ''Lambert is morally unfit. His gay lifestyle will harm our society. He is of bad character and poses a danger to young Malaysians.'' Dear Mr. Nasrudin Hassan, for your information, there are ALOT of GAYS within your own muslimin-muslimat. And just for your further information, most of the gays or Muslims who opt for the alternate lifestyle are mostly transvestite, drags or you Muslims call ''bapok.'' (no offence to the drags, LOVE you girls) So, take a step backward and think for a second before condemning people. Do you know that being gay or straight is a path of life? That we choose it ourselves, not influenced by an artist or so. Lambert is morally unfit? Why not call your own race and your own religion morally unfit too? Since most of YOUR people are Mat-Rempit, Bohsia and Minah-Rempit? Do you know which race is the most clever in giving people taglines/nicknames and stereotyping? You people who protest against things that you think are immoral. Who start calling tomboys, pengkid? Who started calling gays, pondan/aqua/bapok? These words are what? Bahasa Malaysia :) The national language that you're so proud of. Lambert poses a threat and danger to the Malaysian youngsters? You have gotta be kidding me! He is here to entertain, to sing, to share his music. His music is THE DARK SiDE OF LOVE, not GAY MUSiC. A person who is GAY doesn't make everything he does GAY. What the FUCK is wrong with the mentality of you Malay people??? His gay lifestyle will harm our society, huh? Please, please take another step backward and think. All of your actions are making Malaysia going a step backward and slowly, no artist will come to Malaysia to perform. That is soooo going to affect your fucking tourism. Looks like you PAS people will only let people perform peacefully when they are clad in baju kurung and tudung. To cover their ''aurat'', right? Nah~cover my ass! The last line was ''We will not use violence to protest.'' ARE YOU SURE? So, printing out images of Adam Lambert with a NO sign and stepping on it is not violence? It is the same act of other country burning our national flag. Please have a little respect for people if you want people to respect your country. At this point, I can rest assure that MANY people are ashamed to call Malaysia, their country. Who are you to control our SEXUALiTY, our SEXUAL PREFERENCE, our SEXUAL ORiENTATiON? Nobody! If you think Adam Lambert's lifestyle will destroy the youth in Malaysia, all I can say is your actions will ruin Malaysia.
Posted by Joseph at 11:39 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2010
We reach Bukit Jalil Stadium at 7.35pm. Missed the Glam Competition! It was at 5.30pm, sigh. And I got all dressed up and glammed up. There were soooo many Lambert-Wannabes but I feel I looked the closest! C'mon la, you got Malays trying to look like Lambert and they end up looking like those Bon-Odori victims. With long hair and looking super skinny and all, ugh~ They looked amazing alright...ONLY FROM AFAR.
We thought we would take alot of pictures but turns out the publicity and advertising campaign for Adam Lambert's GLAMNation Tour 2010 was...pretty bad. There's a DiGi tent and what they do? Promote DiGi lor. Then there's Sony Music's tent with a white clothe over and t-shirts everywhere. They were selling Adam Lambert's debut album and a GLAMBox as well but there's no meet and greet session for autograph or anything. SWT right? Then there's information counter at the side with only 2 girls and a table. Wow, 'nice'...
Anywaysss, couldn't stand the wannabes! But a girl came up and said she love my hair! Woohoo~! Although the concert was delayed for 1hour but they played such superb songs! Gaga, Katy Perry and Paramore! Woohoo~! While waiting, suddenly an MJ song came up. It was Billy Jean and this lady, an American I guess...started dancing at the seat and everyone was clapping and cheering while some see it as atttention seeking, especially her own kind. She even danced to Lady Gaga's Bad Romance and it was REALLY BAD! I should have gone up there and dance! Here's the photos we took. There are alot more but they're in YiMei's camera.
Posted by Joseph at 2:08 PM
Friday, October 15, 2010
Can't believe I actually went for Adam Lambert's concert. The GLAMNATiON TOUR 2010. Its still so surreal. Lambert is a true performer. He did 15sets with only 2 short breaks. And I mean REALLY short breaks. It was less than 2-3minutes. Lambert did numbers from his stint in American Idol such as Ring Of Fire and also numbers from his For Your Entertainment album. I don't think I remember all the songs he did but these are the ones memorable to me. He did Voodoo, For Your Entertainment, Sleepwalker, Ring Of Fire, Fever, Whataya Want From Me, If I Had You, Mad World and others.
A local artist which to me is an unknown, Danell Lee (don't like him) and Denis Lau opened for the Malaysia Tour. Lambert kick start the concert with Voodoo and ended it with If I Had You but came back with Mad World as an encore number after much screaming and shouting from die hard fans. It was really fun and a high-flying experience. Pictures will be up soon so stay tune!
To Be Continued
Posted by Joseph at 1:47 AM
I should thank you for making me a little bit more independent but I really don't like the heartache and the haunting memories. The LRT is the biggest memory I have which is haunting me till now. On my first trip here, we travel around with LRT. You beside me. Me beside you, haha. When you come Penang you don't inform me and so when I come to KL, I also don't inform you and you call and asked why. Simple as that. I get no news from you until you need help with something. Lately, its been about your assignment. Need my ideas and opinion, you text me. Hesitated to help you but helped in the end. The result? Not even a word of thank you. And I had to text you asking for a ''thank you.'' What is wrong here? Sigh, I don't know what to say anymore. I will always have a soft spot for you and I am sure you know how to take advantage of it.
Posted by Joseph at 1:19 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Reached KL at 5.30am. Drop point was at Bukit Jalil, went to wait at the LRT station for like half an hour before they open the gate. We took the LRT to Hang Tuah station and change to Monorail which takes us to Bukit Bintang area. We went round searching for our hotel which was Tiara GuestHouse but we settled for Sungei Wang Hotel because its nearer to where we are going and plus the Tiara's people don't sound too friendly so don't care la.
Got our hotel room, took a shower and then Benny suggest we do mask and so we did. What do you get with 2 gays and a girl in KL? Plenty of laughters and fun :)
Whats the plan for today? Hmm, walkaround before going back to Bukit Jalil for Adam Lambert's concert.
Posted by Joseph at 10:33 AM
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Noise is always loud, there are sirens all around and the streets are mean. If I can make it here, I can make it anywhere, that's what they say. Seeing my face in lights or my name in marquees found down on the road. Even if it ain't all it seems, I got a pocketful of dreams. In KL...concrete jungle where dreams are made of, there's nothing you can't do. Now you're in KL, these streets will make you feel brand new, big lights will inspire you. One hand in the air for the big city, no place in the world that can compare, put your lighters in the air saying yeah, yeah, yeah~
This is my third time going to KL. First was to visit an old flame, second was with friends during semester break and now, its for the Adam Lambert concert. Although KL is pack with traffic jams and all, I still like it there. Maybe I will find my new/fresh start over there. Maybe I am born for something bigger than Penang. Like I always say, I've got a pocketful of dreams, ideas going round my head with no means to execute it. Maybe KL is where I will shine. I relate all of these with Alicia Keys' Empire State Of Mind, the broken down version. I hope KL will be my home once I can find the means the settle in there. I do love Penang but I love KL too. KL is like the New York in the States.
The feeling of excitement is not necessarily for the Adam Lambert concert but its more to going back to KL...
Posted by Joseph at 10:42 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
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Best part? Highlight of the day??? When our BELOVED lecturer, Mr. Aaron did Lady Gaga's moves and actions. Mr. Aaron told us after the dance that HE CAN DANCE. Haha! Sure you can, Sir. Just keep telling yourself that :)
Ms. Ooi came to support us too. What a bunch of good sporting lecturers. We had fun under the sun, gossiping under the clouds, bitching under the skies and overall fun. Alot of water were being splashed especially when it came to water balloons, hehe...
Posted by Joseph at 12:28 AM